What the Riverās Been Bringing
The river churns and thunders lately, with disasters and upheavals spinning our heads. I write this with well-wishes for all of you who read it: may you find a rock of calm in the midst of the rapids.
My own rock, these days, has become less (than it used to be) about mentally coping with hard times, and more about connecting with myselfānoticing my feelings, speaking up and reaching out for what I need, and ultimately, being my own ally.
That has led me to begin making various self-advocacy-related changes in my life, including:
going back to therapy
starting back on an antidepressant
seeking outside housekeeping help
learning about neurodivergence and how Iām autistic and thatās okay
availing myself of sensory accommodations such as sunglasses and earplugs whenever I want
setting TV-related boundaries in our house
setting various other boundaries with my kids, husband, and other people
and the list goes onā¦
and now, that flow of change is finding its way to my blog.
Blog Changes
First, Iāve decided to move my blog from WordPress to Substack, because now that Iāve finally heard about Substack, I really like the ways itās designed to support writers. Iām starting over with my subscriber list, leaving behind my count of passive followers on Wordpress for the possibility of more active connection with readers on Substack.
Second, I aim to start sharing a wider variety of content, in order to give freer rein to my creative expression. Iāve got a lot of writing pouring out of me these daysāas songs, poems, and prose, in addition to my ongoing fiction projectsāand it seems that sharing my writing helps to keep it flowing. My quiet, minimalist approach to blogging in recent years (which itself was a conscious change from my eager-puppy early days of blogging) has echoed my personal growth work of learning to listen to my own inner voice. But now that Iāve learned to hear it better, itās got things to say!
Coming Soon
Here are some of the sorts of things Iām planning to post on my new Substack blog (which will still be found at annaeplin.com):
regular updates about things Iām reading, writing, and learning
brief essay-posts about what Iām learning in areas of life that interest me, such as:
parenting
marriage
writing
neurodivergence
rationality
recovering from rough religion
mental health/inner life, including topics such as:
mindfulness and radical acceptance
self-respect and assertiveness
empathy and compassion
poems (as before)
ākid momentsā (as before)
photos I take of nature, because I enjoy, in my own amateur way, trying to capture some of the astounding beauty of the world around me
possibly some fiction at some point (but mostly Iām still keeping my fiction close while I conjure my stories and hone my skills)
andāIām particularly excited about thisāmy songs! šµ Iām in the process of making videos of myself singing and playing my songs, and Iām planning to share them on my new Substack blog (and my Instagram account as well). The videos will be live, unpolished, and not in any way perfect musical performances, but they will help to channel the flow of my songwriting, which keeps on coming at top speed these days. (Down the roadāor, down the river, as it wereāI hope to make an album with the help of my musically super-gifted sibling who is also a whiz with audio engineering.)
Some Final Thoughts
The more I grow (and age!), the less I care about appearances and surface-level congeniality, and the more I care about true connection, with myself and with others. I think that art is the closest thing weāve got to being able to experience someone elseās experience, and therefore that art can connect us in a way that nothing else really can. So that is my highest aim with this blog and with all my writing: to express my experience for the sake of connection, which itself can yield all manner of goodness.